Friday, September 30, 2016

identity.

Pink Skies Through Blue Eyes.

For a long time I have thought about what it means to be myself. I have thought endlessly about who I am as a person. Am I outgoing? Reserved? Intelligent? Friendly? Yet after 16 long years, I still have no idea. Some days I am all of those traits at once. And others I am no trait at all. Just a skin wearing skeleton. (spoopy!) I am uncertain of my writing style, I am uncertain of my future, I am uncertain of my talents etc etc.The one thing I am sure of is that I lack ambition. It's the trait I hate the most about myself. One of many flaws. An extreme downfall. There are things I want to do in my lifetime, goals I desperately want, but when it comes to working hard towards it -I shut down. It is almost like the idea of hard work and possible failure frightens me so much to the point where I do nothing at all. So, why am I telling you all this? Why am I putting my biggest flaw on the internet? Because I want to make a change. This is me starting to chase after what I want. This is me preparing for the trips, the stumbles, the falls, all in hopes of achieving everything I ever dreamed of. We all get a chance to dream. But why don't we take those dreams and make it a reality?