identity.

Pink Skies Through Blue Eyes.

For a long time I have thought about what it means to be myself. I have thought endlessly about who I am as a person. Am I outgoing? Reserved? Intelligent? Friendly? Yet after 16 long years, I still have no idea. Some days I am all of those traits at once. And others I am no trait at all. Just a skin wearing skeleton. (spoopy!) I am uncertain of my writing style, I am uncertain of my future, I am uncertain of my talents etc etc.The one thing I am sure of is that I lack ambition. It's the trait I hate the most about myself. One of many flaws. An extreme downfall. There are things I want to do in my lifetime, goals I desperately want, but when it comes to working hard towards it -I shut down. It is almost like the idea of hard work and possible failure frightens me so much to the point where I do nothing at all. So, why am I telling you all this? Why am I putting my biggest flaw on the internet? Because I want to make a change. This is me starting to chase after what I want. This is me preparing for the trips, the stumbles, the falls, all in hopes of achieving everything I ever dreamed of. We all get a chance to dream. But why don't we take those dreams and make it a reality?

Girl In Pieces by Kathleen Glasgow

A huge thank you to Random House Kids for sending me a copy of this book!

"I'd never seen a girl with skin like mine"

Every once in a while a book comes along that makes it hard to breathe. It slowly brings up memories of the years you have tried to forget. I was never proud of what I had done in the past. I was never okay with the scars that I gave myself. Yet promptly after closing this book, I took a step back and realize: I am okay and I am not ashamed of myself. Scars connect us to each other and our pasts. Without our pasts, we would not be allowed a better and brighter future for ourselves. 

This book follows a girl named Charlotte (Charlie) Davis and her road to recovery after inflicting endless pain upon herself due to all her losses. The road is rough and long, with stumbling and falling, but she finds a way to survive even with her dark past. 

Kathleen Glasgow's writing is emotional and truthful, never dancing around the painful events that come with life like homelessness, abuse, alcoholism, drug addiction, etc. The connection she builds between characters is a strong and reveals that we are all connected. The characters are all flawed in their own ways, some worse than others, but it reminds me that no one is perfect despite how much they seem to be.

I was at first hesitant to read this book. The amount of cliche mental health books out there is overwhelming, but GIRL IN PIECES is nothing like that. The main love interest, Riley, for the most part is awful towards Charlie due to alcoholism and his drug addiction. The cliche plot of the boy "saving" the girl or vice versa is out of question. It doesn't end entirely happy yet, but I am certain that there is a happy ending for everyone. No matter how messed up they seem to be.